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How losing an apartment helped me gain a better relationship with my sister

When I returned post-trip to pick up the keys, most of the promised work wasn’t done. Or, more accurately, the place was uninhabitable: I didn’t have a shower to use, much less hot water. I gave the landlord two more weeks to finish repairs before I moved in while I alternated between packing and having panic attacks that the whole thing would fall apart. 

But when I showed up on October 1, movers in tow, the repairs still weren’t done. After a week of showering at friends’ apartments and pleading with the landlord to finish the work, I called it quits and broke the lease. I got my money back, but I had nowhere to go. September 1 is Boston’s holy grail — the bulk of our leases start and end then — and there was simply nothing available within my budget.

I resorted to a humbling Plan B: I called my sister, who owns a home with her husband north of the city, to see if I could move in with her. While we’re close, we weren’t “besties” by any means and usually describe each other as polar opposites — she’s a planner, I’m a procrastinator; she’s an early bird, I’m a night owl; she knew from a young age that she wanted to be a nurse, while I stumbled into my career as a writer in my late twenties — and so I didn’t anticipate an open-armed response. Despite living just 25 miles apart, we see each other mostly on holidays and special occasions. It’s not that we don’t love, or even like each other; we’re just acutely aware of our marked differences and respect them as such. 

I held my breath while waiting for her answer, which was yes — with restrictions. (The first being that I was not, under any circumstances, to talk badly about the suburban living on social media.) I cried, this time out of gratitude and relief, while feeling ashamed of the fact that, at 31, I’d come to rely on my younger sibling’s charity.

Our first few days together were admittedly awkward and a bit tense: We hadn’t lived together in over a decade, and even then, it was under our parents’ rule. We agreed upon our own rules — like that aforementioned social media request, and that my tenure there would be short, no longer than six or eight weeks — and coordinated schedules to ensure we’d never step on each other’s toes when it came to things like using her kitchen (gleaming and full of high-end appliances) or washing machine (which plays a song to alert you to a finished cycle, unlike having my darks dumped atop a folding table by a stranger at the neighborhood laundromat). 

I set up shop in one of her spare rooms, with most of my belongings in storage for my anticipated return to the city, and resolved to stay as invisible as possible to avoid further inconveniencing the life my sister and brother-in-law — my new landlords — had created for themselves.

Except, our lives began to integrate. In small ways at first — I’d tag along for trips to Costco, or schedule my dinner to coincide with theirs. My sister would knock on my bedroom door to run an outfit by me, and I’d join the pair, briefly, in the living room to watch an inning of the World Series. I raked their leaves; they dried my dishes.

Then, we made time for coffee — mine black, my sister’s with almond milk and Splenda — after going for a morning walk. I folded her laundry, and she left me a stack of magazines she’d finished and knew I’d want to read. We went grocery shopping and made dinner together, delightfully annoying my brother-in-law with early-onset Christmas music as we chopped and giggled. We began to talk again — really talk, opening up about our private lives not just as sisters, but as friends — and when it came time for me to move seven weeks later, we cried, creating small puddles of salty tears on her shiny kitchen floor.  

Call it fate, or everything happening for a reason: Unintended consequences are born from things not working out. A dream job that turns into a nightmare and ultimately creates the space needed to forge a new career. A partner who cheats, and in turn nudges that “click” to purchase plane tickets for a trip halfway around the world. A movie selling out, and falling in love with a second-choice film instead. Or, in my case, dealing with the aftermath of a real estate deal gone sour, and gaining a close relationship with my sister in return, something I always wanted, but was never quite sure how to grasp. 

In the midst of it all, another thing happened: I began to question what it truly means to be successful. Is it a great apartment and the other ever-growing laundry list of “things” that polished, proper adults should have by their early thirties? Living in a bustling metropolitan city? Or is it relationships, which require time and patience — not money and a contract — to cultivate? 

For now, I’m subletting; and to be honest, I’m not sure where I’ll be living in another six months. September 1 rentals are already on the market, and I’m starting to feel like my time in Boston is starting to expire. But that’s OK. I’ve got dinner plans with my sister this weekend.

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